My little rascal, my joy.

4 Month Changes.

So Michael just turned 4 months about a week ago and with the change in month, brought about many different changes.

He was having a problem sleeping by all alone, I always had to carry him and attempt to put him down but honestly, its cause of this that my back is dead. So for quite awhile now, I've been leaving him to try to sleep by his self which of course has resulted in massive wailing. It breaks my heart hearing him cry like that but he has got to learn to sleep without help. So now, I don't feel so bad and now he basically sleeps alone BUT I have to place the pacifier in his mouth and position him for sleep. No, I still can't just pop him in his crib and he'll do the rest. No, he still can't sleep without his pacifier. So the irritating thing is, whenever his pacifier falls out of his mouth, he cries.

I guess its a very slow start but its a start nonetheless. Have tried letting him cry to the heavens till he get so darn tired that he falls asleep. So yea I've started to let him cry for a much longer time before I head him to pop in his fallen pacifier and by then his eyes can barely open. But I really can't wait for him to sleep alone.

Ah, he's more anti social now. Before, he would be so super excited when others carried him. He used to love seeing my uncle, aunty and cousins. Would get super excited that his shoes would fall off! But now, he just looks at them and cries. No, they look normal I promise. Try getting them to carry him. My god.

So again, my back. Poor boy, he must be so scared.

I'm also starting him on the pureed fruits this month! How exciting! At 2 months, I started Mikey on juice. Dilated juice of course. Half and half with water and he took to it so well. Of course it was not a substitution to milk but more like an addition and only 1 tiny bottle for the whole day. His feeding was really bad and still is actually. He never finishes his whole bottle but decides to drink half and leave the rest for 2 hours later or 30 minutes later so its so difficult for me cause I never know when he wants to start drinking again. The 3 hour interval is all over the place. So in came the water and juice and it kinda made his milk time more on track.

At 3 months, I added Cerealac to his milk, once a day. I thought it would make him a little more full and he would have a better undisrupted sleep. He loves it so much that whenever its Cereal milk, its a whole bottle and sleep soon after for a full 2.5 to 3 hours! Which is lovely cause he's less cranky!

So now, I'm so super excited to start him on this pureed stuff. I know its gay but I'm so excited to use the baby spoons. =/

Eyed.

So this was taken on the 7th of December 2011. This was taken it town and his eyes gets real big and bulgy when it gets dark so my mum tried to talk him into being calm. Freakin hilarious.

So evidently Michael's actually a tad afraid of the dark, its getting better now though. I have so many vids of him, i really should post them up! :)

On another note, I wanna get this:

Its a on-the-go bottle warmer. Fill the flask with warm water and there's an up-turned frosted container that you pour the warm water into when you wanna warm up his milk. Best part, its designed to fit into any diaper bag.So I'm really interested in getting this, don't really know where to find this though but I think its really smart and functional. I already have a warmer bag from Avent, which works wonders. But after 4 hours, the warm water tends to slowly cool down so I think this might be real good too.

And also, Drypers are the worst brand for pampers I swear to the heavens! My God! Huggies Dry isn't good as well. I mean seriously. Michael isn't affected at all but we all are when our clothes are wet cause the pampers decides to leak. 

I Am A Great Mother.

I am young. Fact, I'm turning 24 this year.
I am inexperienced. Fact, Michael is my first child.
I have made mistakes. Fact, with mistakes come lessons.
I have doubted myself. Fact, insecurity builds my confidence and knowledge.

There are two kinds of people that you will see clearly once you get a child of your own. The ones that believe they are experienced in this department, having had a child of their own and might sometimes try to have a say in how you raise your kid. If you're unlucky, ALWAYS try to have that say. And the ones that clearly have no idea what its like to have a kid and doesn't seem to get it but decides to assume any situations in their mind. 

So I just need to mention that I do not care of opinions of how I should raise my child. Oh, let's edit that. MY child. Having had children/a child also does not make any one an expert with babies. I had such a stressful pregnancy, a lot of tension, drama and crying. Throughout my pregnancy. But I pulled through. I pulled through to make sure that Michael would come into this world safe and healthy. I, goddammit, am doing a fantastic job!

Age and situation, does not make what kind of mother I am.
My age and situation does not make an opening for others to judge or have an input of what I should or should not do with regards to my son.

Yes, I may not do the perfect things all the time. Yes, I may question myself sometimes. Yes, I may even ask stupid questions sometimes. But at the end of the day, who deals with Michael's massive crying? I do. Who deals with Michael's kicking, scratching and wailing when he can't sleep? I do. Who wakes up sometimes in less than 3 hours interval every night? I do. Who carries Michael all through the night when he can't get to sleep by himself? I do.

So yes, I may not be incredibly rich to afford to buy my son lavish gifts everyday. I may not be able to take him to many countries, just because. I stress myself out sometimes in case I can't afford milk for him. But that does not label what kind of mother I am.

I Am A Great Mother.

Mum's Big Day!

So on the 4th of January 2012, my mum officially became a 'Black'. 

Yupp that's right, she finally got hitched! 

I'm so happy for her. I'm happy as long as she's happy, no matter the situation.

It was a very small and private event at Registry of Marriages. 

Just us and my uncle's family. 

It was so fast. I wasn't expecting that. 

Clearly, I have no idea how these stuff work. It was like in, out, boom! 15 minutes max! 

It was quite funny when they were saying their 'I Dos', they were so serious. No smiles, they looked scared to fumble with the words. Best part, they were saying it to the Solemnizer, not facing each other! 

Haha, Looney Bins. 

Not much to say but I do want to wish Mum and Dave, a very happy, easy, and simple future and life ahead. Forget complications, avoid them if possible and embrace happiness and love. 

Forgive each other when called for and always say I'm sorry if need be. 

Enjoy being man and wife, especially at your age where you just have to remember that all the drama of your younger years are over, time to relax and enjoy your life!

We love you both very much! Enjoy your new chapter in life!  

HELLO 2012!

Long overdue post.

So its 2012! I think 2010 and 2011, wasn't that great. 

But 2012's gonna kick ass. Even if it doesn't, I'm gonna make it kick some ass. I'm so sick and tired of terrible years. 

Anyways, NYE was spent in a really lovely way! We had close friends and family drop by to our place for good food and drinks. It was incredible! There was laughter all around, smiles and just fun times. Michael was sleepy all day and since we were a tad busy, we couldn't entertain him long enough to let him sleep so he was cranky by night. He still needs to be carried to be able to fall asleep but once he's massively knocked out, he can be put down nowadays. Thank heavens, not like before. Before, it was a help him fall asleep and don't even try putting him down situation.

So he was cranky, I wasn't feeling too well. I was exhausted and my parents were busy so my darling cousin, bless her heart, came over and carried him and helped him sleep. She's a real pro that one. :) 

It was nice being able to run around with the kids and when I was tired of that, talk with adults and when I was tired of that, we all sat down to play with the kiddies toys, we put stuff in our hair. Haha! Not my proudest moment.

Honestly, everyone was tired before 2012 came along. We were all ready to head to bed, but we stayed up, counted down then ran to bed! Haha, dorky yes I know. It was a little sad that Amin couldn't be around to spend New Years with us, that's two years in a row. This year. I'll make it happen. 

The first day of 2012, its our family tradition to have a meal so we headed over to Clifford at Fullerton Bay Hotel. I haven't been there but its lovely. Restaurant and Hotel. We were laughing like crazy whackos and surprisingly Michael was asleep throughout. Must have been knackered from the day before! 

Here's some pictures.

Well this year, my resolution is to lose weight, be patient to be the best mother for Michael and also to avoid drama and tension. Basically to have a great year! What's your resolution this year?